Tersedar sesuatu. Perkara yang paling menyedihkan bila hilang dia. Banyak benda yang nak diluahkan tapi tak tau pada siapa. Tak boleh cerita pasal dia dekat kawan-kawan sebab tersedar yang sepajang perkenalan kami, aku tak tahu apa pun pasal dia sebenarnya. Not even his full name. Rasa macam jatuh cinta dengan imaginary friend. Kau je tahu kewujudan dia. Tapi tak orang lain. Nak sangat cerita semua benda pada orang lain, biar hilang rasa beban tu. Tapi dekat siapa? Tentang apa? 

Sepanjang masa ni, dia betul-betul wujud ke?

Beberapa hari ni rasa lain. Rasa kosong. Rasa perlu seseorang untuk bersandar, untuk luah segala. 

Tiba-tiba teringat zie, teringat pesan dia. Mungkin kena paksa diri ni. Sampai bila nak macam ni? Semua benda kena mula dengan paksaankan sampai la jadi darah daging dah.

You can do it Fathehah!!

Mungkin boleh mula weekend dulu. Sikit-sikit kayuh. Lama-lama terbiasa la nanti.

I've alwAys waiting for hari raya you know why?

Because i hope you have a reason to text me..

If any other days you might not find the reason to text me, at least when raya come you can use it as excuse text me..

But, as stupid as i am wishing the same for all 7 years yet you never do it..

Only me..right here waiting.

I've never tired of you..

I wish you SELAMAT HARI RAYA..MAAF ZAHIR & BATIN!

Someone asked me..kita kawin nak?

And i've been anxious all day long..i'm scared. I feel like i'm not ready.

But tonight i realize..it is because not you who said that..

If you i might say yes straight away..all i want all these time is you..nobody else..

If you are here right now, will you marry me?

Because i wanna marry you..ONLY you..

Sebab sepotong ayat tu masih tersemat dalam hati..

I can't move on..

Bila agaknya nak kuat tuk lepaskan semua pergi?

I read our past conversation and..

I miss you..

I wish i can tell you this..

This feeling is killing me..

For the thousand times i want to ask..

How are you? How's life?

Another Raya without you.

How are you?

Are you here in KL or back at your hometown?

No raya wishes for this year as the last 7 years?

I am still wishing you Selamat Hari Raya as I did for the past 7 years.

I miss you.